This is going to be a long entry. brace yourselves.
Do you believe in soulmates?
Do you believe, that the universe is positioned in such a way that everybody in this world is linked, one way or another, to each other, but theres one particular link between two people that can never, ever be broken?
Romantic, isn't it? I believed that for quite some time. and i'd like to think i still believe in that, not wanting to be too realistic as i personally and very strongly believe that cynicism causes people to be, although very mature, thoroughly miserable. I want to believe that there is such a thing as someone you were meant to be with, because that would undoubtedly mean that it isn't all in our hands, wouldn't it? somebody else would be planning all this for us. But isn't there one small but hugely significant flaw in this arrangement that causes this to be all immpossible? HUMAN ERROR?
WHAT IF, for example, you actually meet that special someone, but you're too busy to notice? like for example, it's during the year of a majorly MAJORLY important exam, and you can't have a relation ship just yet, and he's all broken hearted he moves to africa, and get stampeded by a herd of elephants, and you never ever see him again? does the link change? or do you die alone, or with Mr. Wrong?
What if you MEET HIM/HER, you're completely free, but they don't give a shit about you? but with all the feeling in your gut, no matter how much people dissuade you, you KNOW that there is some good in them, whatever flaw you see. you're not blind, but when the situation gets so hopeless that they start to fade from your thoughts, weird signs start appearing, like opening a page in the bible that says "have faith, and he will come" or your watching tv and this singer that has your first name, and his surname, pops up on the telly. this little boy you meet in church thats so fond of you and doesnt want to let gp of your hand has is name.
can you CHOOSE whether or not to take this seriously? or do you act like it a coincidence, risk yourself being miserable. what's all this rubbish with "if it's meant to be it's meant to be"? how can one spend life relying on divine intervention? is the sign the aforementioned, or the millions of people telling you you're a stupid git?
I don't know.
but i really, really want to. the naive prat i'm becoming.
