forever God is with us,
Forever.
i've probably grown more in the past 2 weeks than i have my whole life- not so much in the sense that i've been getting epiphanies and stuff, but i've learnt so much i feel i have to make record of it and share it before it loses its distinctive importance.
everybody has their own way of glorifying God, their own method of worship. Some glorify him by spreading the word, and by evangelisation. Some worship him in their own quiet way. Both extremes and everything in the middle are equally powerful, and equally spiritually fulfilling. every aspect of my relationship with God is pure worship. The doubt, the questions, and all other negative aspects of my faith are what makes me christian. I cannot doubt without believing in the first place. I cannot question without feeling a need to understand. I am a catholic, through and through, and just because the way i worship is in contrast with the way others do, does not make me a hypocrite, nor does it make me a bad person. I move along with my journey of faith a little wiser, a little stronger. If i feel uncomfortable with sharing about my faith, it isn't because my faith isn't rooted, it is because my worship and my relationship is private, between me and my God. It brings me happiness, yes, to worship collectively, and to feel the power of God working through so many people around me. I do believe that it is important to share about one's journey through faith, because it is what inspires others to join in, but there are some things that people need to learn for themselves. The power of God's love is felt through his people, but it is what one experiences with him personally that keeps him strong and rooted. many things have happened to me that have kept me strong in my faith. i may not lead a christ-centred life, but i do thank God at every opportunity for the good and the bad things that have happened, because i learn how to worship him better every step of the way.
bottom line: i love my Lord, and when i say that i shouldn't be judged on what i do wrong, but what i do to change it.
done. geeeeeeeez i hope i made sense.
